Jab who farigh huwa aur apna lund bahir nikal leya to us ney towel sey meri gand aur apni lund saaf keya aur mujhay shorts dobara pehna deen. Who meray hips ko dono haathoon sey khol ker apna lund ander ghusa raha tha aur mera dard sey bura haal huwa tha. Kafi dard huwa aur main roney laga mager us ney mujhay naheen choora aur jab tak farigh naheen huwa who meri gand marta raha. I cannot remember correctly laiken mera khayal hai key sara lund ander chala gaya tha. Iss dafa us ka lund meri gand main ghus gaya. Kafi dair ungli kernay key baad us ney apna lund meri gand per rakh ker zor sey under ghusaya. Ungli kernay ka maqsad meri gand ko kholna tha. Phir usney cream laga ker meri gand main ungli kerna shru ker dee. Keun kay main kafi young tha iss leya who meri gand main lund kafi der tak na dal saka aur oper oper sey karta raha. Phir us ney meri gand per kuch cream lagai aur apna lund meri gand main dalney key koshis kee. Us ney meray hips ko khola aur choot ko acchi tarha dekha aur phir zuban laga ker lick keya 2 ya 3 minute tak. Quilts key oper main taqreeban adha leita huwa tha aur meri legs bister per theen. Bister per do quilts pari theen aur us ney mujhay un per nanga leyta deya. Woh mujhay kamrey main khailney key bahaney sey ley gaya aur bister per ulta leyta ker meri shorts utar ker mujhay nanga ker deya. Main us key ghar khailney gaya tha aur woh us waqaat ghar main akaila tha. Meri gand marney wala meray hamsay ka beta tha jo us waqaat tairah ya chodah saal ka ho ga. Who din mujhay aaj bhee yaad hai keun kay meri sari zindagi tabdeel ho gaye thee. Main taqreeban saat saal ka tha jab pehli dafa meri gand kisi ney mari thee. Yeah meri kahani hai key main gandoo kaisey bana. So, that was my sad story if you know or have any resources, advice or suggession please tell me.This story has been written in Urdu language which can be understood by people from Pakistan and India or those who can read and understand Urdu written in Roman alphabets. I have tried to go to US embassy for asking about asylum but the guard said they only deal with visa interview and I came back helpless…Ī friend of mine suggest me that somewebsited do crowd funding too I have tried Go-Fund me but it didn’t work in Pakistan. Now I am seeking the scholarship, volunteer work, or internships so, that I could convince my parents that I am going abroad on study visa and I will be back and do the marriage as soon as my study will be finished. I am soo depressed and often thinks to attempt suicide but the only thing keep me alive is internet, whereI search regularly Google map, embessy websites, asylum related blogs and forum and LGBT organizations that I got some help to get out of here. And send me to Islamic school to get rid of homosexuality. So, I am not out to them as I am afraid because if I tell them that I am gay they will lock me in to the house, take my phone from me and will do my marriage on spot. I am not open to them as its considered as a taboo here however I tried to indirectly talk with them and they said its a curse by God Almighty and these floods,hurrican,and stroms cause by these kind of people as God giving them a warning to came on right path. As in my family cousin marriage is being done from 3generation. Life was passing through peacefully but now as I get 23 years old now and my my parents are forcing me to get married with my cousin. I am Malik from Pakistan, I am gay and belongs to a conservative Muslim family I was 14 when I discover that I have no sexual attraction towards girls, my male cousins mostly asked me about my likeness in my female cousins however I always says no and they thinked that its because of shyness. Have an LGBTQ+ related experience or story to share? Having your article published on this site will automatically enrol you into a raffle to win a $50 Amazon Gift Card. Editor’s Note: The following submission is from Malik.